It's my titbits

偶然发现，原来他那腼腆的微笑才是最迷人的。

Semester 1 of year two in university almost comes to the end, what have I done for this semester? There is no assignment for this semester, ie. I have to sit for examinations for 6 modules in the coming January... What? Lots of things to read through and I not even finished quarter of it, what should I do? Under the conditions that I do not have other better option, I forces myself keep reading or I die for the coming exam. Hmm..maybe not die but you will probably would not see me in nottingham for the coming year because I probably 'kick out' by Mr. Lee due to my result is too bad.

Life never easy, challenges are always waiting for us to overcome it.

Few weeks ago, I received an email from my friend which mentioned that why human life never be easy. It states that originally human only has 20 years of life expectancy and our daily routine only including EAT, SLEEP and last but not least PLAY!! However, due to the greediness of human being they asked for longer life expectancy from Lord. Finally, human being gains 70 years of life expectancy which

20 years for eat, sleep and play
30 years for work hard to earn $$
10 years for entertain people around you
10 years for retirement

Hmm...And now I am 20 years old and I almost finished the first 20 years and what's going to happen to me for the coming ten years??

o/s: wei!! What am I doing here? GO BACK TO STUDY!! OTHERWISE THE COMING 10 YEARS you will...dunno what will happen but for sure I will do my exam badly if I don't try to understand my modules.

=P

你说谎吗？
如果有人说他不曾说过，
你是否相信？

世界上的谎言，
大概只分三种，
第一，恶意的谎言，
不顾一切的撒谎，
只为了自己的利益，
这是要不得的。

第二，中性的谎言，
或许应该称它为玩笑，
与朋友胡闹，
瞎搞一场，
最后没有任何的伤害，
也没有任何的利益，
得到的只是快乐的时光，
与朋友的友谊。

第三， 善意的谎言，
你会说吗？
如果事实比谎言残忍，
你会为了安抚别人的心，
说出谎言吗？
选择相信善意的谎言，
是幸福的，
发现被这种谎言给骗了，
开始会觉得愤怒，
长思以后你会发现，
它
是窝心的，
因为有某个人，
不忍心伤害你
而篇了一个美丽的谎言，
所以你是幸福的。

婷

the first photo I took with my St. John Ambulance uniform, I looks serious ya? Do I looks professional? hehe...

I still remember, our teacher asked us not to smile when we sat infront the camera because we need to be serious as this will be the photo on our identity card and my teacher believe we looked professional if we face expression looked serious.

And now, I wishes I can tell my teacher she was wrong!! I was a St. John Ambulance member and I had passed the examination organized by the board of SJAM. I still shocked and stunned when somebody suddenly faint infront of me. So, I pretty sure that I am 'professional'...=P

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I am a genius! Genius in wasting my time... I wasted my holidays again...Sigh.. Exam coming in January, everyone around me seems like very concern about self-studying but what I am doing? Youtubing? Facebooking? doing nothing? ARGH!! Why I can't just concentrate in my studies? I still have many journals which I havent read yet... Would I repeating the same mistake I done in my year 1 again? No!! I should stop it from happening...

I might have to take the QM2a test alone on next week. It might be one-to-one which means I take the test in a room where only my lecturer and me in it. Hopefully it would be my lecturer and not the irritating assistant!!

There are 4 stages living things must go through it, which included:

-Live
-Becoming older
-Sickness
-death

My grandfather had went through all of it others than the last and finally he experienced the last today... He rests in peace, stay away from sickness and suffering, and his life journey ended when he is 83 years old. Is dying a terrified process? I do not know about it, only my grandfather knows it.

Uncles and aunties came back to grandpa's house to prepard the funeral which I do not know much about it, unwilling to help although I wants to do so...

I failed to do anything about it. That is the only thing I wants to say.

It is very hard to communicate with people who never say sorry, some people just think they will never make mistake, not even once. Perhaps I am not a good daughter and he can't be a great father... but why the god put us together? I am going to be adult soon, I have my own thinking and when he can't win the argument between us he just use his power card... he said "because I am father and you are daughter and you have to follow what I say...for no reason."

I am sick... sick with all the arguments around me... I needs a peaceful land for my own, my room is not yet as peaceful as what I want, I need a place which away from all the arguments because I am tired with all the arguments I have made. Sometimes I wondering, am I the one who started the argument? or people come to argue with me because they think that is fun?

What could I do? I am so tired to fight... should I give up? No... I am not going to do so... My life and my destiny should in my own hands not him... study hard and get a good job...i think that is the only way to escape...

Honestly, I do not understand why my university arranged school reopened in 22nd september, after one week of schooling, we have our Hari Raya Holidays again!!! Aiks, just make me become more lazy...

Now, I am having my Hari Raya Holidays and I have no idea what to do during this holiday... Everyday wakeup around 10am and have my breakfast then sometimes reading newspaper or sometimes switch on my computer and surf net... then having my lunch again.... hmm... i think that is the reason why I am gaining weight... Perhaps I should go for exercise; but if I want to follow my dad to jog I need to wake up around 6:30am... ARGH!! I can't make it..

I read people's blog for this afternoon, many of my friends do not upload their blog for long time especially HIM!!! Already left Malaysia for so many weeks but never upload post about ur life there... Also if I want to see the photos of you I need to log into Frienster... Come on... Upload some photos in Facebook, it just takes you a few minutes, not going to kill you, anyway wish you all the best there...hehe

Reading other people's blog especially notties recalled back my memories, especially the happy moments we share together when we just start our life journey in Nottingham Malaysia... Now I start thinking

What is the secret recipe we have which makes all of us so happy last time? Being happy and excited very often. I really miss my first year...

'Events' that i miss included:

1)Celebration of Royle's birthday
2)Trip to genting
3)Celebration of Mayjoan's birthday which tiring but fun and memorable!!
4)Karaoke-s in green box
5)Cycling in Taman Pertanian
6)Camwhore with Jenn and the soft-toys ^^ - I still keeps the copy..
7)Last but not least... The days we spend in hostel when hongmei still around

*sigh* I m sure ll miss gabe when I am rushing for my assignment...

Wondering why i laugh so much last year....

Conclusion: year 1 -> year 2 -> Mature -> lesser 'crazy' thoughts -> lesser funs -> life becomes boring.... What could I say? Can I be kid...Forever?!

A picture speaks thousand words.

It is true; either speaks thousand of happiness or speak thousand of sadness. Some pictures are carrying happy messages at first but turn to be sad at the last.

I should stop myself from looking at it... Perhaps I should throw it away... Come on!! Life still goes on no matter how you feel right?!

NEW!! NEW!! NEW!! Finally I went back to my university after 3 months of summer holidays... I checked in for hostel on 18th and registered on 19th... Thank you to the staff of the accommodation office for not allocated my room in the Kapas or Pangkor Hall... I am currently staying in Tioman hall which allocated in the circle of Residence Hall. However the view out of my room is not as good as last year, I still love my previous room which is more windy and with night view faces to the sport complex.

New semester will start on 22nd September 2008. I have to gearing up this year because beginning from year 2 the results of examination will be included to grade my degree... Hope to get better results this year and hope that everything will go smooth ...Although people keep saying face challenges will train myself to be stronger but I still prefer smooth sailing =P

P/S: I hate people who ffk... FFK makes me feels lame... Don't ask me for outing if yourself do not comfirm about it

Here are the photos from my room...

View from my current room

View from my previous room --can always see ppl playing basketball^^

伤口，
它，
或许表面只是一道疤痕，
用力得搓它一下，
才发现，
原来它还未痊愈，
痛得泪不禁落下。

Finally... I went!! But I think I would not go there again for years, not as fun as I thought.

3 unhappy things for this time:
1st: the one I love does not blossom in this season
2nd: Fail to shoot a nice one, only few of them which I think is barely satisfied
3rd: Accident happened on the second day

Here are those which are barely satisfied:

It's all about strawberries in this visit, and I LOVE STRAWBERRIES... >.<

I found an interesting insect in this trip

Is this spider? It has 4 legs instead of 8...

I have to say that everyone of us take time to understand philosophy of life... according to my super boring Moral studies which I took before my summer holidays...it states that philosophy means love of wisdom... Does it mean that as we know more about philosophy and understand deeply about it...we will beccome someone which is more wisdom? Perhaps, it is true....

Recently after three weeks of my shitty job... It actually taught me about something very important, it might be something important for my whole life and affect my whole life.... I realized that a philosophy I heard long long time ago is correct and I should more emphasize it in my life....

"Knowledge is the only permanent asset for human being, it is something that could not be taken off by others..."

At the moment I listened to this sentence, I did not put much attention on it... No matter what kind of tangible asset you own, for example money, cars, houses, shares of big corporate etc... even your HOT girlfriend/boyfriend, it could be taken off by bankrupt? by economic crisis? But even people cut your head off, they still not able to steal the knowledge inside your brain right? It shows how true the sentence is.....

Now after looking at the way my colleagues work, live, survive and they social, I suddenly realize that knowledge is very important for everyone... Many of my colleagues are in the catogories of under-educated, sorry to say that I noticed that their lives are not only poor but also without quality... The quality here not refers to how many luxury goods they owned but it's refers to the culture, and the manner and the way they speak... Talking about the way they speak, they are so advance in using the harsh language and the volume they speak is also super high... Finally, on today's meeting, my manager ask we *not including me...=P* to slow down our volume when we speak... Please do not make the environment of working similar to the environment of market... muahaha....

Slow down your voice... It save energy when you talk... Isn't it great?




I WANT YOU TO KEEP QUIET.^^..SLOW DOWN YOUR VOICE...

Recently, there are too many Sui(adverse) things happened to me:

1. The suiest thing, I failed my Business Law B for my semester 2 examination...

2. I have a sucky job, as receptionist but actually not a pure receptionist, sometimes asinvoicing clerk, sometimes as the customer service officer...

3. My father does not allowed me to join the student exchange program to Ningbo, China, without reason...

4. Malaysia government is suck...useless, burden her citizens, and increase the price of everything except the salary of her lovely citizens..

Start to fed up with my own life... Feel like it is so meaningless and full with disappointment...
Start thinking that there is no good for growing up...
Start thinking about my shitty future... Sense like I ll join the gang of unemployment...
Start thinking to give up my own life... Since everything cannot decided by myself....

And regarding to this it reminds me of one of my friend who wish to die during her 21st....start thinking that it might be a cool idea...

*demotivated, depressed, disappointed, unhappy, upset, tired....*

Now is 2:47 a.m. in mine place...I am still awaken and before i go to sleep i would like to draft down what have happened today...Whoops...i suppose say is yesterday..

10th May year of 2008, I sat for my Business Law B examination.... Hrmm... i done it badly anyway... people were writing 3 pages per question but i just wrote one and half page for each of it.... now i just hope that i can pass the Business Law B!! *Praying* without passing it... I can't join the student exchange program organized by my university and i really hope I can go!! I would like to go oversea to learn culture of others, open my perspective etc...

now I will shows why i did my Business Law B badly:

1. compared to the Contract Law, Company Law is much more harder to understand... it seems more abstract to me coz I can't imagine what actually happens in a corporate.

2. Actually it is my own fault, I admit i study it just three days before the examination and I am last-minute work super-fan.... ADVISE TO ALL MY JUNIORS crammed all the facts into your brain seems like useless for this module...

3. Due to the stress and nervous, I fail to fall asleep... I slept on 12:00 a. m. but i woke up on 3:00 a. m... *Sigh* how could I concentrate when i sat for my exam?

4. Text book - Company Law, Dignam and Lowry, is not easy to be understanded...

Anyway after finished the Law examination, I felt that I am released... no longer feel stress and the surprisingly i can take a long nap immediately after my paper... LAW is not FUN!! It makes me mad and crazy and it is the only subject that caused me having insomia...The new quote i get from this exam :

很快的我在大学的第二个学期开始了。。。新的一年本来下定决心要好好用工读书可是这几个星期却玩的有点over了。。。呃。。。。我想应该是农历新年还没过吧！！！ 不管怎样这几个星期来玩得挺开心的， 认识了来自civil engineering 的朋友。。。乘着还有时间就好好玩吧！！！！

I am so stressed..... 8th Jan 2008 is my first examination in university. It is also the first time i m having business school modules in examination . I still got lots of things haven't memorized yet.... What to do??? Hopefully the part i read out will come out for exam!!! Why business school module is so hard??? Science module only required understanding but biz need u to remember!!!!