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26th December is such a happening day in western world because everyone get ready for crazy sales in the mall! Too bad, it is not existed in Malaysia, but I still going out for shopping today. A real shopping not the window shopping that I used to do.

Great deals are everywhere, we choose to take public transport and not to drive due to the jams that happened everywhere for the past 2 days. YES! public transport rocks!!hehehe... road jam was non of my business because I was in the bus, bus driver should care about it. Stuck in the jam is something wasting my time which I do not have much of it to spare because my weekend getting more valuable since my working started.
These are the great deals I found out today:

And these are the christmas gifts I received this year:

1. The most long term gift I get in my life for the past 22years, as mentioned in my previous post, I will be getting increment for my pay starting from Jan 2011. I would have more resolution for the coming year, more planning need to do! Oh yar, I m still looking for accompanion for travelling... hope to get one soon..

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Oh yar! I missed countdown for Christmas as I m too lazy to go out after came back from jams around federal highway and bandar utama. I think I will have my lonely happy new year as well! When people having their count down, I will be just back from count stock at Sarawak, *sob* departing from bintulu ard 4pm, as usual airasia having very bad puntuality over my experience, I estimate to wait till 5pm. It would be around 8:30pm when I reach home!
My christmas wishes:
1. My family will always healthy and joyful
2. Find someone that love me
3. *secret*which will goes on to my birthday wishes as well.. shh..

This is the best ever gift I had received in my life.. I get increment for my salary!! Muahahahaha... No bonus for this round coz I am still under probation but at least I get something great in return! *smile*

他：“你好像把自己留在那里，人出来了，可是心却不见了”或许吧!


很久没有开心地笑，坚强是面具，如果我告诉你不痛那是假的，强颜欢笑是为了让爱我的人放心。
 
在这缤纷繁华的都市里，人来人往，我还是寂寞的。
 
如果有一天，我遇见了那个会让我开怀大笑的人，我一定会把我的心给他。。。

我很想离开这里，一个人背包旅行去，逃开我不想去看的问题。

如果有一天我不在了，你会想我吗？

p/s : 最近我好像变了，变得自我保护意识很强，很怕自己再受伤，很讨厌我自己，因为我快乐不起来，越来越讨厌自己了

I have try my best, trying very hard to talk to you and wanna be your friend once again. What I get as feedback is ignorance, cut my line when I called and delete me from the contact list. OK! I am tired, I am not as determine as you thought, I have to say I tried very hard, and now I concluded: If you do not want to be my friend, just let it go, I do not need you neither! why should I beg you so hard to make you come back to me again!

Shoo off~ BASTARD!

Oops.. perhaps I should called you coward!

转身离开，你走了，我没哭，
因为我知道你不会再为我擦泪了，
我笑着对你说：“祝福你，我们还是朋友！”
但我知道，我的心中还有千百万个不舍得,
只是勉强撑起了笑容，送你离开我的身边...

这一刻，回忆的碎片再一次被拼筹起来了，
分手了，可浮现在脑海中的却都是美丽的回忆，
从前那些幸福的片段不停在脑海中轮流播放，
想着你的好，我不舍得，
想要记起你的坏，我做不到，
好想叫你不要就这样离去，
可心中明白你始终会走...

做回朋友这句话只是让当时的情况变没有那么伤感，
既然一切已经结局了，又怎么还能继续在做朋友呢？
我知道，如果再做朋友，这一辈子我都休想放下你了，
我知道，朋友只是藉口，只是还想要有个理由关心你，
我知道，分手不是本意，只是为了让你过得更加快乐..
曾经你给我无数的幸福，今天你连本带利地拿走了，
留下的伤痛我不和你计较，因为我知道我还爱着你，
我发誓我一定要过得比你还幸福，但心中却希望你过得比我幸福，
我发誓一定要在很短的时间放下你，但那颗爱你的心还舍不得你，
我发誓我会找到一个比你更好的情人，但最终我还是选择一个人...

或许，认真过，失去过才知道什么是爱情，
一个人不一定是在等一个对的人，
有时候，我们是在等一个向自己回头的人，
即使我们知道，他只是一个错的人...
即使我们知道，他也许不会再回头了...

告诉你，分手时，我已经知道你不在乎我的眼泪，
你转身以后，我哭了，因为我希望你会帮我擦眼泪，
即使，那只是一种同情，因为我还想被你在乎,
只是你连头也不回一个，就离我而去了...

from : http://www.facebook.com/notes/mu-kang-ng/fen-shou-shi-wo-mei-ku-dan-ni-yi-zhuan-tou-wo-que-ku-le/10150313079010182#!/notes/mu-kang-ng/fen-shou-shi-wo-mei-ku-dan-ni-yi-zhuan-tou-wo-que-ku-le/10150313079010182#!/profile.php?id=780659471

I guessed this is how a young lady become mature and tough, drive all the way into the city that she totally has no idea about it and try to figure out a given point. Yeah, I am learning, learning how to be capable, learning how to handle everything by myself, the day I depends on someone is overed, and I guess that is how every lady in audit firm being brought up, and here sooner I will lose the only remaining little childish personality in myself. Can I just stay as what I am now?

THAT IS NOT CUTE AT ALL!!>.<
at least when I get tired, I wishes I can still slack like a kid, whining a bit, so that I could earn some rests...

p/s: listen to the sad songs from my CD player, and drive in the dark rainny night, it makes me feel that I am lonely~ heart being left alone makes the loneliness double up...

luckily, I know someone is waiting for me at my ultimate destination... you will never be alone with family~

Ms Lih Ting is super down today. My colleague greeted me in the morning and asked " why you looks so sad today?" I always think that I could hide my sadness well, at least not to show my sad face to the people around me because I always do not want my family and friends to worry about me, and today I think I failed. Trying very hard to smile whole of the day, luckily I sit somewhere back faced my colleague today, so I no need to force myself to smile.

I thought I could be relieved after I did it, but in fact I feel like hurting myself even more. Okay, at least I did it, out of expectation, I have the courage. Why I am not so Lih Ting recently? Where is the cheerful girl gone? The one who tell gossipins, the one who laugh most of the time, the one who appreciated whatever she owned and satisfied with them? I wan myself back! I am crying too much for the month of oct, Lee Lih Ting, where are you?? I want you to be backed!

If you say that I am tough that means you do not understand me at all.. Good friends should know I am very fragile in some matter especially relationship with friends

Going to join the job market on next Monday. As a good audit, I think I should stop myself from crying easily, and be more patience towards people. Must tolerate with turtle!!

Anyway, I am feeling depressed, upset, stress, sad tonight and my head feeling like explode. I thhink writing blogpost is the best way to release my emotion but when my friend asked me what happened with me used to face difficulties to tell them how I feel.. GO TO SLEEP LT!!

今天无意中发现了在人与人之间，还存在了一种叫做 "蓝颜" 的关系。。。

最近，总觉得你在逃避我，女人的直觉很准, 曾经我以这种为乐，我上线, 你下线, 故意把自己的status设定到appear offline， 离奇的你又上线了。不能当情人，难道你不能与我当朋友吗？

每天还是期盼着你回来和我说话，告诉我，我们还是朋友。。你不能当我的 "蓝颜" 吗？

你或许不知道，不回短讯/MSN，所有的女生都会生气吧？曾几何时我真的应为你的行为很想放声大哭。。。

希望有一天，我不会告诉你说：“我讨厌你！”

"Ooo..I dunno about it worrr.."

"Hehe... I dunno.."
"Ooo..actually I am not good in it and I just know very little about it!"
In fact, the person think everyone around is so not observative? think people around not observing what the person claimed? at least I am not!!!

Just realize I hate this kind of people, giving such lame answer everytime when asking something that they know but in fact they want to act like they do not know about it! And when time goes on you suddenly realize "OMG! they knew it at very first! Really feel like scolding the f word towards the so called innocent friend which is so not innocent at all!" aha.. perhaps people like you not deserve to be friend.

Okay fine, maybe my friend is just trying to have self-protect, as everyone knows that people that acted weak will always get sympathy...trying to observed and realize the friend is really good in talking crap to cover up weaknesses and likes to take advantages on people... I am one of the victims!!!

Sometimes I really hate to talk to you!

P/s: To the people who read, please do not think you are the people that I so called friend and please do not ask who is she/he?? =P

我们可以很简单，简简单单的当好朋友....
就那样，简单地平凡，
或许你不懂，这样的简单就是一种无限的幸福....

不敢尝试，因为；
分手后不可做好友， 因为彼此伤害过....
不可做敌人， 因为彼此深爱过....
不想我们变成了最熟悉的陌生人.....

Really do not know today is white valentine when I said it will be proceed. Just realize it when i read my friend's blog.. what the heck!
Well, it does not mean anything for us.. I believes.

*knock my head hardly*

I called it STUPIDITY.. what do u call it? Starts to believe what the horoscope said.. as time goes on we will realize our characteristic is really different..

Perhaps we are really being very different in thinking, what I said might not about what he interpreted. Our thinking is just being apart. Just wishes to let him know it is a joke!

"if normal human being spends 50% of their time in sleeping, i think you spend 60% of your time doing it.." CS said.

Perhaps, I really sleep too much d... better get a better pillow n mattress for my life..

Love to sleep is a disease, is an addiction.. no cure unless I want to throw the habit away.. nah!

Wanted to get a SD card for my brand new photo digital frame.. okay.. perhaps it is not that new anymore.. I got it from my brother like one month ago and it is still remains unpacked. In fact, I am not used to display my photos using photo frames, one of the reason is I think I am not photogenic enough!

• Photo Smart Search (By Date, Folder, Mark, Vertical/Horizontal)
• 1GB internal memory (store up to 2000 pics)
• Auto Orientation
• Multi-card slot accepts Memory Stick, SD, CompactFlash, and xD media
• Eco-friendly on/off timer saves power when operation is not needed

Saw my brother photoframe which is exactly the same model he gave to me, the resolution is pretty good. Nice color, clear image. Hope this new little thingy will change mine perception. Perhaps next time I would say "LOVE PHOTO DISPLAY!!!"

Another paper gone and this is the most satisfied so far, hmm maybe because I just finished 2 of my papers. Three more to go and among three of it - I hate MAD3 the most!!! Gosh!! next semester still got MAD4, after graduate from nottingham I bet I almost MAD liao..

Was told by Jennifer, an international student from our uni get raped in the housing area I am currently staying.. what a sad news to all of the students. Why must exam period full with anxieties? Last year, a student died during exam due to accident and this year another saddening case..

Good enquiry I heard today from the international  : Paul Boardman asked us to becareful and stay alert, but as a girl, what can we do to becareful? Hide in the house and never go out for classes? or just wait at the home to get the food to fall from the sky?

BOBBY BOBBY LA (means blessing in my language).. for my friends and my safety...

One more day to go and my exam will officially kick starts..The second last exam in my undergraduate life.. Somehow, I feel excited because it is getting starts soon because waiting for exam to arrive is just like the stress will never end. In the other words, waiting for exam to start is scary and stressful..

Wishing people GOOD LUCK!!!~

*finger crossed* No other case study except for Enron!!!

Why there are so many cockroaches in this house? is that possible it cames in from the window in the bathroom, from the gaps between my window grill and wall ( I evidenced this) or perhaps my broken ceiling that allowed cockroaches to move to my place everynight? eww.. feeling gross out when i starts imagine it.. the first cockroach appeared ard 12 am and i still able to get help from my housemate. The second one is evil enough!! I found it ard 3am when i was washing as the preparation to sleep, try to control my desire to scream coz my toiletmate is sleeping... and now I am awake!! "thanks" to the great "surprise" given by this small, little, tiny creature!
Well, perhaps I should think it more positively, it is the surprises that god send to me so that I wont fell asleep when I doing my revision for my exam which is 4 days later.. Unfortunately two of the 'gifts' get killed.. Hmm.. sometimes I was thinking, perhaps get shock by cockroach is more effective than Brand's chincken essense in letting ppl stay alert?? Maybe it works for the people who is cockroach phobia, just like me..

Doing reading about cockroach and figure out this


No wonder there are so many cockroach in Malaysia, because no matter it is rainny or sunny day, our temperature will never fall below 80F(ard 27'C)!!! Covered the cockroach picture with paint because I think the photo is disgusting till full.. can exactly see the texture of the cockroach with the kinks on its legs...  The temperature in Semenyih is getting hotter nowadays, so I think I should be more alert all the time, just in case they visit me again!!

Between I just realize that roach actually exsted longer than human, they had started they "civilization" on the earth 340 millions years, ago while human just less than 300millions!! And the fastest, they run 7km/hr which I couldnt make it...

I think I should go to bed now.. at least trying to sleep since my mood to study is totally void..

p/s i promised my friend to go to uni for lunch 6 hours later and now I am still awaken.. hopefully I wont be overslept... and we are having houssie birthday celebration tonight.. hehe I can wrote it here as I know he dint read my blog..

p/s : Mayday! Mayday! Cockroach found in Josh, Chok and my room... What a coincident... Thank you gabe killed it for me..