It's my titbits

我很想离开这里，一个人背包旅行去，逃开我不想去看的问题。

如果有一天我不在了，你会想我吗？

p/s : 最近我好像变了，变得自我保护意识很强，很怕自己再受伤，很讨厌我自己，因为我快乐不起来，越来越讨厌自己了

I have try my best, trying very hard to talk to you and wanna be your friend once again. What I get as feedback is ignorance, cut my line when I called and delete me from the contact list. OK! I am tired, I am not as determine as you thought, I have to say I tried very hard, and now I concluded: If you do not want to be my friend, just let it go, I do not need you neither! why should I beg you so hard to make you come back to me again!

Shoo off~ BASTARD!

Oops.. perhaps I should called you coward!

转身离开，你走了，我没哭，
因为我知道你不会再为我擦泪了，
我笑着对你说：“祝福你，我们还是朋友！”
但我知道，我的心中还有千百万个不舍得,
只是勉强撑起了笑容，送你离开我的身边...

这一刻，回忆的碎片再一次被拼筹起来了，
分手了，可浮现在脑海中的却都是美丽的回忆，
从前那些幸福的片段不停在脑海中轮流播放，
想着你的好，我不舍得，
想要记起你的坏，我做不到，
好想叫你不要就这样离去，
可心中明白你始终会走...

做回朋友这句话只是让当时的情况变没有那么伤感，
既然一切已经结局了，又怎么还能继续在做朋友呢？
我知道，如果再做朋友，这一辈子我都休想放下你了，
我知道，朋友只是藉口，只是还想要有个理由关心你，
我知道，分手不是本意，只是为了让你过得更加快乐..
曾经你给我无数的幸福，今天你连本带利地拿走了，
留下的伤痛我不和你计较，因为我知道我还爱着你，
我发誓我一定要过得比你还幸福，但心中却希望你过得比我幸福，
我发誓一定要在很短的时间放下你，但那颗爱你的心还舍不得你，
我发誓我会找到一个比你更好的情人，但最终我还是选择一个人...

或许，认真过，失去过才知道什么是爱情，
一个人不一定是在等一个对的人，
有时候，我们是在等一个向自己回头的人，
即使我们知道，他只是一个错的人...
即使我们知道，他也许不会再回头了...

告诉你，分手时，我已经知道你不在乎我的眼泪，
你转身以后，我哭了，因为我希望你会帮我擦眼泪，
即使，那只是一种同情，因为我还想被你在乎,
只是你连头也不回一个，就离我而去了...

from : http://www.facebook.com/notes/mu-kang-ng/fen-shou-shi-wo-mei-ku-dan-ni-yi-zhuan-tou-wo-que-ku-le/10150313079010182#!/notes/mu-kang-ng/fen-shou-shi-wo-mei-ku-dan-ni-yi-zhuan-tou-wo-que-ku-le/10150313079010182#!/profile.php?id=780659471

I guessed this is how a young lady become mature and tough, drive all the way into the city that she totally has no idea about it and try to figure out a given point. Yeah, I am learning, learning how to be capable, learning how to handle everything by myself, the day I depends on someone is overed, and I guess that is how every lady in audit firm being brought up, and here sooner I will lose the only remaining little childish personality in myself. Can I just stay as what I am now?

THAT IS NOT CUTE AT ALL!!>.<
at least when I get tired, I wishes I can still slack like a kid, whining a bit, so that I could earn some rests...

p/s: listen to the sad songs from my CD player, and drive in the dark rainny night, it makes me feel that I am lonely~ heart being left alone makes the loneliness double up...

luckily, I know someone is waiting for me at my ultimate destination... you will never be alone with family~

Ms Lih Ting is super down today. My colleague greeted me in the morning and asked " why you looks so sad today?" I always think that I could hide my sadness well, at least not to show my sad face to the people around me because I always do not want my family and friends to worry about me, and today I think I failed. Trying very hard to smile whole of the day, luckily I sit somewhere back faced my colleague today, so I no need to force myself to smile.

I thought I could be relieved after I did it, but in fact I feel like hurting myself even more. Okay, at least I did it, out of expectation, I have the courage. Why I am not so Lih Ting recently? Where is the cheerful girl gone? The one who tell gossipins, the one who laugh most of the time, the one who appreciated whatever she owned and satisfied with them? I wan myself back! I am crying too much for the month of oct, Lee Lih Ting, where are you?? I want you to be backed!